the world according to sire

Nothing hurts like that look in your eyes
Fuck the day i thought love was more than a lie
I only die every day
Sit alone count the “no’s” of the yesterdays..

r.i.p franklin

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None of those things matter. They don’t exist. They’re simply instances, time itself is not real. The duration of a day varies on length due to your perception of things. If you’re having a good day it will go by fast, if you are having a bad day it will drag on forever. Einstein once said, “Sit next to a pretty girl for an hour, it seems like a minute. Sit on a red-hot stove for a minute, it seems like an hour.”

Recently, work has been going really good. It was never bad but things are really picking up and I feel like I am getting a lot done. I haven’t been doing much at all on my own time, just sitting around watching movies when I am home. Then I go to sleep, wake up and go to work, then repeat the cycle :). Live life, don’t waste it dwelling on things.

OneNineSixNine: oh man I thought you looked hot in a bikini
OneNineSixNine: but then I noticed I clicked on your sister’s myspace page via yours
OneNineSixNine: WHOOPS
b a l d t a c o: hahahahhaah
b a l d t a c o: dude everyone thinks we look alike
OneNineSixNine: that was scary
OneNineSixNine: I thought I was attracted to you spencer
OneNineSixNine: nope, just his sister

They like me like flies on stinking meat. Well I have pull with him, but pull’s a bastard. Well, I am a hideous thing. I know ain’t much redeeming me, but I have pull with him. And… this molested trash begs for forgiveness. This molested trash, so used to the punishment. Now this molested trash has a tongue like a serpent. Now this molested trash is eating up all of the punishment. It’s too late, it’s too late, it’s too late I am used.

i don’t know why but i can’t seem to grasp what is happening in my life right now. i wake up go to work hang out with friends then go to sleep over and start over every day. it’s very strange. this is not the way i thought my life was suppose to be.

two weeks ago i told myself this was all a nightmare. now it seems like it was just a dream to begin with. seeing you was not how i remembered you. that look in your eyes is gone. the love that was promised vanished with it. but then again promises are just words. i guess i never should have believed them. yesterday i saw a stranger rather than an old best friend/love. trying to pass the time with liquid doesn’t seem to be getting me any further along.. but it doesn’t get me behind. i have my good friends. i have my family. without them i would have given up a while ago. if it weren’t for these pictures and letters i’d swear it was a dream. the pain from finding out new truths is stiffer than this glass. i’m ready to feel for the last time.

my grandpa died today. i wasn’t really close to him but the fact that it’s hurting my dad hurts me. i can’t even imagine what i would do if i lost my dad. i don’t know what to really do about it i feel so bad for him.

i love how this stuff goes, honestly i do. my friends that hardly talk to me seem to call me when they need something. what is with that? i am in everyones fucking phone as 411 or something. i don’t care when people i talk to often do it i’m very glad i can help. it just sucks when i call someone and they never pick up but then call me when they need help. why are people so selfish like this?

bah enough with that ranting about it won’t change their ways. thank god i have cate, she’s seriously the best girlfriend in the world. she helps put things into perspective for me. work is going good it’s getting crazy for chris i feel bad for him everything is on his shoulders he has to basically do everyone elses work trying to get shit organized when he already has enough stuff to worry about. we move in the 30th but we have to move most of the stuff the 29th it’s going to be a bitch but we’ll manage.

today i was out to dinner with cate and my mom called to say hi and tell me something but i cut her off and told her i was at dinner and she apologized and hung up.. i didn’t call her back it slipped my mind but now i fell like shit for not calling her back.

hello everyone. this is my website. this is all it is so far but hopefully it will grow into many more things.

sire